Learning Peace

The experiences I need show up right on time.

As I become aware of them, I am given insight into their deeper meaning.

I learn to receive their gifts.

It is a challenging time to learn peace as a consistent state of being.

I learn to discard all distractions, and I gain another moment in sustaining my peace.

There is no rush to complete things.

Each step can be done in a state of peace.

Being in a state of peace allows much wider observation.

Instead of being preoccupied by accomplishing the next step, I can relax and feel my surroundings.

I am no longer cocooned in a state of deep concentration in order to distract myself from pain.

I am gradually becoming in touch with my senses and taking in my surroundings.

I am safe.

I am in a safe place.

I am visibly seen in a good light.

What I do is appreciated.

I am given support as I take my new tiny steps.

The support comes in unexpected ways.

There is a lot of compassion surrounding and supporting me.

I am doing what I love to do and I am being seen in positive ways.

I am standing up for myself in ways which support who I am and what I do.

The threatening distractions fall away as I become confident and continue my practice.

I feel the peace as I maintain my alignment with who I am and what I do.

© 2019 Kathryn Hardage

www.pebblesofpeace.blogspot.com 

Loss and Gain

I have lost so much; I have gained so much.

During my long healing over a couple of decades, I have lost so many opportunities for family contact.

Durig the same period, I have sifted through so much past abuse and processed it to a fine, thin powder which, broken down, fits thourgh a seive.

That is what the healing has been like.

Tiny, powerful steps to confront long-term egregious crimes against a little girl.

It is sifted, proocessed, healed and released.

Certainly, there continue to be triggers, and emotions and memories which have to be dealt with.

But the actual work is done.

I have a new foundation to build on.

I am moving beyond my past and emerging into doing what I love.

That this is possible is attributable to the input of so many authors, workshop leaders, talented and compassionate therapists and supportive friends.

It is attributable to my persistance because the alternative was unacceptable.

I am in a new place and I am grateful for my new life.

Things connect; I am not filling in for so many gaps.

It is possible to be recognized and valued and appreciated.

It is possible to be happy.

It is possible to live in beautiful surroundings and to feel safe and secure.

It is possible to be around people who enjoy my company and who love me.

With this new foundation, I enjoy the progress I am making.

I am so sorry for the great loss, whch was beyond my control.

Now that I have dealt with so many of the”hidden drivers” of my life, I am hopeful for more reconcilation and healing.

Let all be well for all of us.

© 2019 Kathryn Hardage

www.pebblesofpeace.blogspot.com 

The Values of Deep Peace

My first value is the ability to feel perfect alignment with my purpose.

Facing my deepest challenges and finding solutions.

Learning to maintain my own deep calm.

Continually taking my own tiny steps.

Learning new skills and reaching out with them.

Establishing my new authentic foundation.

Creating a base which honors my deep values.

Learning the skills to create, maintain and reach out from my authentic base.

Knowing which are obstacles are mine to conquer and which are merely distractions.

Having the stability to keep moving forward.

Learning to feel safe.

Trusting my own assessment of the situation.

Respecting myself and taking action on the basis of my assessment.

Releasing what has been hidden and healing it.

Seeing myself move into authority over my own life.

To give myself a sense of well-being.

To live consistently within my own framework to share inpsiration and peace.

© 2019 Kathryn Hardage

www.pebblesofpeace.blogspot.com 

Unexpected Inspiration

Inspiration is everywhere, often in the most unexpected places.

In the course of updating our vehicle registration and driver’s licenses, we encountered unexpected inspiration.

We had waited in line for two hours, only to find that despite our previous visit, we did not have the correct documents.

When we went downstairs to get the required first document, we found out that we needed to change county offices.

We went home for lunch.

After lunch, we went to the closest county office.

It was rented to a different business and was closed for rennovations.

We went to the next closest county office.

It was closed due to tornado damage.

We thought about what else we could do for the rest of the day.

We found a late evening opening at the museum.

We looked at the list, and decided to go to the county office closest to the museum.

We drove downtown and got the first required document.

Then, we drove due south, all the way across town, got the help we needed for the next document, and during the time we spent with the agent who was helping us, found a very inspiring woman.

We came back to the museum for a lecture giving some of the background to the exhibit.

Then we went home.

People show up in ordinary places as ordinary people, but they are sometimes extaordinary.

The next morning, I woke up still feeling inspired by the courage and resiliance of the woman whose story we had heard in the course of the help we received from her.

We were grateful for the opportunity to meet her, and were glad we had not gotten mad or impatient over all the offices we had to visit.

That’s a new practice, and it keeps giving us room for unexpected opportunities to give and receive inspiration.

© 2019 Kathryn Hardage

www.pebblesofpeace.blogspot.com 

Remaking the Nervous System Responses

I am so grateful for the opportunity and ability to acquire new healing knowledge.

As I use it to rewrite my attitude and responses, it is remaking my life.

I am moving in a completely different direction and with a completely different attitude.

I recognize the old symptoms and I know what to do about them.

What shows up now is a refrain of cruelty, masking as self-doubt.

I am able to counter that with a deep sense of self-compassion and love for myself.

I supply the self-nurturing and self-protection I need from the abundant resources of the Universe.

I turn toward the feeling of light and happiness through the joy of doing what I love to do.

I receive and share the inspiration which has lead to my peace.

I continue to take the tiny steps which build my new foundation.

As I experience the results, I see the world from a new perspective.

I am safe, and what I am and what I have is of value.

The past negative memories are being replaced with new experiences of appreciation and recognition.

It is becoming safe to be visible.

It is OK to be seen; I will not be hurt.

I am surrounded by beauty and peace and calm.

I attract abundant resources and live in harmonious surroundings.

Step by step and layer by layer, I am creating safe haven for myself.

As I commit to doing what I love, it moves me in the direction of happiness and peace.

I am fully aligned within and with my practice of my values.

There are no gaps between what I enjoy and what I do.

We are one.

This creates a response which supports me.

I am building a constantly expanding safe environment in which to live.

© 2019 Kathryn Hardage

www.pebblesofpeace.blogspot.com 

Lifting Invisible Despair

As I find myself cultivating ways to be and to share happiness, it counteracts the early feelings of despair which I grew up with.

 It makes sense today to notice the many things which contributued to this feeling.

At the time, because they were invisible, nothing was done to address and correct the situation.

As I continue to grow and realize what the symptoms signify, I am able to lift myself out of despair and into happiness.

I now have a collecton of skills and tehniques to counteract and prevent a feeling of despair.

By committing myself to discovering and doing what I love to do, I continually move myself into a positive and uplifting state.

As my ability to be happy expands, I am given new opportunities to do what I love which feeds my happiness.

Getting started on a cycle of happiness continually lifts me out of the habit of despair, and my default emotion is much higher.

Being sensitive to this feeling in myself makes me sensitive to it in others.

By sharing my strategies and techniques, I can help others lift themselves out of despair when they practice them.

We have a choice of determining how we feel once we learn that we have ways of addressing our emotional state.

Whether we know the cause or not, we can interrupt the despairing ruminations with positive and uplifting action.

We can control our breathing, engage in a mindful activity, journal, draw, cook, converse, exercise.

Our attention to lifting our despair will fill us with uplfiting emotion.

Once we interrupt the cycle, it will never hold as much power or occupy as much space in us as before.

We can practice interrupting the cycle with a much quicker response once we know the techniques and strategies.

Our ability to engage in powerful positive activities rewires us for happiness.

© 2019 Kathryn Hardage

www.pebblesofpeace.blogspot.com